Thursday, October 8, 2009

i know, i don't have to tell me. its been too long since i've written anything or put any pictures. so today, i shall write AND post two new pics.

a lot has changed in the last few weeks, and mostly, i turned 26. it's been like a what i could imagine a mid-life crisis would feel like. i've had a MAJOR re-evaluation time, along with just handling general. i'm coming to terms with the fact that i can't remember everything, and so i should write EVERY THING down. so i have these cute little brown notebooks i keep in my purse to write in, and i forget they are there. ugh. so frustrating. so i'm learning, and mostly about me and the person He has created me to be. i'm in there somewhere, and i enjoy discovering new talents that are within.

i haven't lost my love for art, or shut my photo eye off. in fact, here is a picture i took last week on the way out to my car leaving work one day. i couldn't resist, i mean like at those rays!


have i told any one lately how much i love jaxson? he's so precious. he is saying some the funniest things right now, and so matter-of-factly, it makes his comments even greater. he's tender hearted and loving, and still all-boy at the same time. last week after my birthday he told his mommy that he forgot to get me the "girl car with eyes" he promised to get me. he was actually sad that he had broken a promise to me. so late in the week, he was able to get me my long lost girl car with eyes. we loving named her peggy...which he loving calls "piggy". its adorable.

yesterday he spent some time with me in the office and was amazed at my very large head phones. so, i attached them to my cell phone that was playing the latest episode of Phineas and Pherb and he was more than content to sit on the floor and hang out with me......[yes that is his chicken strip gravy spilled on the floor]

i love that boy. he teaches me daily about the joys of life. the joy of the Lord really is vibrant in our lives...if we'll just keep our eyes focused on it.

peace and love.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

its a good day

sometimes, it's the simple things in life.

i had a really good. quite productive if i say so myself. house cleaning, laundry, fabric store, banquet, home poster project and my little surprise i found when i came into my room. jaxson left me this little present.....(yes i know the chair is ugly, its a work in progress)

i love it when he leaves his very special cars in my room. i know he's been there, and hopefully thought about me and he remembers that i love him.

today we were riding in the car together, and things had been quiet for a few minutes and he looked over at me and said, "whut you finking about see-see?" [a question i ask him all the time when he's too quiet]. and i had the opportunity to tell him that i was thinking about how much i loved him and how i couldn't live with out him in my life and that he was so very special to me. and being three he smiled real big and giggled.

i couldn't help but laugh with him. it's the childlike mind of his that i love so much. it reminds me of how my relationship with Lord should be. how i should just be able to sit and listen to Him speak to me and giggle when He tells me He loves me. hmmm..........

that little boy is one the biggest blessings in my life. he has no idea the impact he's made on me. LOVE HIM.

i know today's picture was spectacular, but to me, it was priceless to find.

peace and love.

Friday, September 25, 2009

i know, i'm a slacker on the photo thing

so time officially gets away from me. i don't know where it goes, but it goes.

so i decided to show you a few of my pics as of late. i'll show you a few, to make up for the days i was a slacker :)

this is a pic of our youth just getting started in worship. opening tune, opening me, they went there.

and something new......i love old logos and art work. this label is from my new needles - no, not the drug kind. for my free hand embroidery projects. yes, i tried it, and i LOVE it. it'll take some practice, but i really love the classic vintage looking embroidery and i really love the idea of mixing it with beads and other textures. i have tons of ideas. and i really love getting to use my hands for this project, as well as a different part of my brain....i think. the pic next to my logo is my first two tries. like i said, i'll get there.

it'll take some time, and as in all things, there's something to learn. it's a little like gardening in a sense. its just you and this landscape and all you have are your thoughts. for me, a perfect time for the Lord to speak. over and over. to bed.

peace and love

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

commitment to photos

i decided today that i'm going to take pictures every day...of something my eye catches. so, i'll start today's post with a picture from an eventful dinner with my favorite three people last night - the two greatest parents in the world and one super sweet little guy. he was very excited to be giving kisses to his mommy last night. and i was more than happy to snap his picture.

i love you guys...completely

growing the hard way

 hi.  i love to learn.  i don't always think i'm an easy learner, and sometimes, like a high school drum line, things have to be POUNDED into my head.  but i'll get it eventually.  

there are lots of changes going on around me and i am trying to keep up.  there are new things being introduced, new challenges, new projects, new blogs, new to do's, new expectations, new ideas....ideas.  that's where we'll land.  

i have this idea for this quote that cristie sent me this last weekend and i have this idea as to put my own touch to it...texture, font, and then print and hang it in this poster frame i have (you can see it in the background).  the idea has been there about 3 days.  and every time i try to sit and do it, i get distracted by all sorts of things, but really, the distraction is everyone else's ideas i keep coming across.

well, i keep hearing in my head "quit being a chameleon."  it's like an annoying ring in my ear.  but over and over i hear it.  and i even had a conversations about me thinking my ideas are wrong today...weird.  so i keep hearing it and i keep trying to get rid of it, i keep trying to justify it, so i just decide to look it  up (in my very vintage dictionary i saved from an evil trash can) "chameleon."  and in there i see the word "fickle", so i look it up.  ugh.  conviction.  it's not pretty, and definitely not who i want to be.  here's the gist of the def:
-someone marked by the lack of steadfastness, stability, constancy
see what i mean?  so here's what i've decided or learned.....will in the process of learning....whatever, i'm getting it.  anyway, in ALL things i must be true to who i am. stable in all i do-  spiritually, emotionally, and in the physical.  i have been created unique.  just like you.  i am unlike anyone else.  i think differently, i react differently, i learn differently, i love differently, and i decorate differently.  my style is my own.  i'm just me.  i can no longer feel guilty for that, think its wrong or try to change it.  i MUST be stable in who i am.  i can't waver in who i am, and i can't try to please everyone.   hi, i'm me.  welcome.  

so, i'm sure it sounds a little silly, but it's one of those little lessons that is a huge deal to me.  but that's what i'll do, from this point forward.  i'll just be me.  and there's nothing wrong with it. i feel as though i should have named this blog, "simple little lessons" because those are the ones i'm learning. but, what ever it takes.   

so the next time you see me.  hopefully you'll see all that I am, and nothing else.  i am His child, His possession-His.  i am fully determined.  

thank you red dictionary.
thank you r&c - two of my favorite teachers.
thank you Father for Your constant running after me.

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Sunday, September 20, 2009

i have 3 minutes...and some dry time

its days like today when i have to really focus on why the world works the it does, why i do what i do day in and day out. i'm amazed at how some can overcome things so easily and i find my self so down-hearted.

but then the Lord reminds me, as i sit in silence, all of the reasons why. 1)because He's God 2)because He called me to serve the one(s) i serve 3)He called me to do what i do. and no matter how anyone else see's me, or what, or how i get through each day....He does, He calls, and He makes the calls.

i need no other reason to hold my head up HIGH than because my Savior is who He says he is.

simple enough. yet strange how often i must be reminded.

oh, and i defeated the world's worst printer ever, i win, and the ink is dry. i must go.

peace and love.

Saturday, September 19, 2009


after much persuading, here's my blog. it's official. i did it.

here's what you should know about my blog. it WILL NOT be perfect in any way. especially grammatically. i don't typically capitalize my sentences. according to some, i probably won't write in complete sentences, and to others, there will be tons of run-on's......oh and the excessive use of comma's. and yes, the complete wrong use of apostrophe's. sorry. oh and too, i'll leave words out, but you'll get the idea.

but what i do want you to know is - me. i write how i think. a little random, and a little different. but the Lord speaks to me quite often and i think there are things He speaks that are valuable to all. i'd like to share creative ideas i have, and one's that are shared with me. and i've been challenged to share things i create. so, read, look, learn and maybe find some inspiration. but most of all, be blessed.

peace out.