i know that you are for me

the days since i've been here last seem too numerous. but maybe not...there have been a lot of going-ons in the world of "me".

the Lord is challenging me in big, big ways. the kind of challenges that take you right out of your comfort zone. the kind that make your heart race and the kind that make you so uncomfortable you don't even feel like yourself. but all at the same time you feel empowered, strong and beautiful.

its an tranquil ride.

i'm actually really enjoying it.

i am having to keep my feet on the ground, remind my self that i am not a magician and that only He can make all this work.

so in my humanness i started trying to figure it all out and cloud hop. i needed to just pray and have a few relaxing moments alone with the Lord the other night. i knew if i went to my room or starbucks, i would find a hundred other things to do or focus on. so what did i do? i took a bath. now, if you don't know me very well, there's probably a little something that you should know about me. i hate taking baths [don't ask, another post for another time]. anyway, i knew it was the only way, so i turned the water as hot as it would go, put some baby bubble bath stuff in there, like i do for the little guys around our house, and eased my way in.

too much info?

sorry.

let me explain.

in the quietness of the bathroom and the stillness of the water, i heard the Lord begin to speak. He talked about the path He's taken me down. how He's had to ease me into the plan He has for me. because He knows me best. had He swooped me up and thrown this daughter of His right into the middle of the water, it would have burned and been excruciating to figure out what to do once there. i wouldn't have trusted Him enough to let Him put me there. instead, He took my the hand, and gently led me right to the place He wants me. He led me by, and right to the still waters, that i might see His full and complete purpose for my next step in life with Him. to know why now, and not then.

He spoke of trust, and if i continued to try and figure it all out, my humanness would see me OUT of the water. that it wouldn't make any sense. that i couldn't handle all that He had for me.

how amazing that His plans are so much greater than what i can create in my own head. He loves me enough to create a way specific to just me. how He loves me so.

He has adequately prepared me, lead me down a path. just the way He knew i would need Him too.

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so all day today, i can't get away from this song. i woke up singing it. here are the words. written for me on this day.

So faithful

So constant

So loving and so true

So powerful in all You do

You fill me

You see me

You know my every move

You love for me to sing to You

I know that You are for me

I know that You are for me

I know that You will never

Forsake me in my weakness

I know that You have come now

Even if to write upon my heart

To remind me who You are

So patient

So gracious

So merciful and true

So wonderful in all You do

You fill me

You see me

You know my every move

You love for me to sing to You

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peace and love.

p.s. i don't hate baths as much anymore. ;)

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